Sometimes and Still

I try but still.
Sometimes my kids are in the pjs from the night before all day
Sometimes I pay bills late because I completely forget
Sometimes I don’t play with my daughter because I’m bored of the things she wants to play (but I’m trying…)
Sometimes I feel like throwing the tv away and canceling internet on our computer. I have many reasons…I struggle with self control. It sucks my husband in. I don’t like it entertaining my family. I love simplicity and hate distractions.
Sometimes I over spend our food budget for the week because I am too lazy to cook and want to by a ‘quickie meal’ (meal I don’t have to cook)
Sometimes I don’t remember to wash my hands after changing a diaper
Sometimes I get scared I’m doing something wrong
Sometimes I wish I could just have a little extra cash to buy some things we need in our family
Sometimes I love ian’s spontaneous nature and other times I hate it
Sometimes I sweep stuff under the rug so that my kitchen floor will be somewhat clean when guests arrive.

If I could, I would
Eat only healthy food…We just really can’t afford it right now
Add a few more hours to my day
Spend several hours a day making things (crafting)
Clean my house every day (but spending time with my kids is much more important)
Never do laundry again

I’m finding I love…
Snuggling next to my husband and ignoring my to do list
Chasing my daughter and catching her to smother her in kisses
Listening to my son blow raspberries in bed when he wakes up in the morning (even if it wakes his sister up)
Discovering the joys of being a mommy…the job that never ends but the ones with rewards immeasurable.

And that Boy I sure think my kids are cute